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Catching Dreams... Visions... and Sacred Pauses

The first week of July I offered a dream catcher I made to Mother Nature, to catch my dreams and allow my path to become clearer. Since then I have been swirling in dreams and visions... and I see amazing new things on the horizon. I am still unsure how it all will weave together, but I know the Moon has some pretty big plans to spread her wisdom and mysteries through me.

I have noticed this year that I have been more quiet in this space, and in general. I feel a need to stay internal right now, go within while some big currents and shifts move though me. 

I am taking a Sacred Pause this Summer... something I never do! But it is something needed for my body and soul. I have began to feel the onset of burnout.... and I know a lot of it is because I have not established boundaries for myself with social media, computer time, down time.... I feel a major disconnect with my body. I live in my mind and higher chakras a lot and just assume my body will keep up with my light-speed thoughts and ideas. I can't tell you how many times I forget to eat in a day. Maybe that is why I have no energy! I honestly do not think about it. I could get away with that while I was in college, but not anymore.

I am forcing myself to slow down. My goals this Summer are to sleep more. Dream more. Be out in nature more. Cook more meals. Eat more. Spend less. Read more. Yoga more. Connect in person more. I've let technology get the best of me. It is so hard to establish new habits and outlooks, but this Summer has marked some huge transitions for me already. I began my new journey as  a yoga teacher only to injure my shoulders immediately because I didn't listen to my body; another way my body told me to slow down. I am about to release more baggage from my heart with a cord-cutting session, and at the end of July on the Full Blue Moon in Aquarius I will be initiated as a Priestess. I need to allow myself this time to just BE, so whatever spirit decides to move though me can come to the surface so I can listen and respond.

Another amazing thing on the horizon is our oracle deck Spirit De La Lune! Rachael and I just ordered our two samples to play and work with. I felt called to write the book with the cards in my hands so their messages in their purest forms could come through. This Sacred Pause will give me the time needed to dive deep into the mysteries of the Moon, these images and moondalas. This Moon oracle has been in my heart for years and to see it come to life has been such an amazing, emotional, joyful experience. We have so much in store for these decks, we cannot wait to share them with you!

Moondaughter is radically shifting into something deeper, and bigger than what I had ever imagined. She is in the cauldron melting and transforming with Spirit. All I can do is brew in this moment... enjoy the process... the unfolding... and allow this deeper magic to settle into my skin. 

Don't be afraid to take your own Sacred Pause and allow your dreams to fly on the wind. You never know what will call you forth deeper into your spirit and path.

And so it is.


 Blessed be,

Marissa Moondaughter

moon my compass // intuition my voice // crystals my companions

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Moments: Re-calibrating and Aligned

I have been quiet.

I have been floating.

I have been re-calibrating.

January was a HUGE month for me. So many completions, new experiences, so much melding of my mind, body, and soul.

So many new beginnings and pathways are opening. 

We celebrated our yoga graduation at Hsi Lai Temple, the largest Buddhist temple in North America. The grounds are so beautiful and the altar room is magnificent. We had some yummy vegetarian food and just enjoyed our time together. 

A week later a group of us participated in Sweat lodge ceremony. Lodge means "the womb," so we went back into the womb of Gaia, released our prayers into the universe, and rebirthed. I had the honor of sharing this experience with my beloved and I feel our bond has deepened since this experience. It was intense, beautiful, and I learned a whole new perspective of surrender.

Our facilitator led us through a journey towards the end of the ceremony and the Fox came to me in my journey and I was given an aquamarine crystal. These codes are still embedding in me, but I know deep wisdom is brewing and will soon bubble and overflow. 

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I also started teacher shadowing to complete my yoga hours. It is so inspiring to see my yoga teachers in their element guiding yogi's, connecting with their truth, and helping others. It is so beautiful! My new ritual is to take a bath after shadowing and keep absorbing the experience.

Absorbing is definitely a theme for me right now. I am absorbing healing, positivity, surrounded by powerful goddesses, and loving connections. I am so extremely grateful!

For the weekend of Imbolc, the last weekend of January, I went to a Goddess retreat in Sedona and it was so amazing.I circled in sacred sisterhood, we hiked, ate yummy yummy food, talked about our birth stories and honored Brighid. January has sparked something in me. 

I feel so empowered, so grateful, so on track. I just need to get my tush organized!

I am ready for the rest of 2015. 

Thank you, January. 

ps. I have a sale in my Etsy shop right now! Use the code: LOVERS for 20% off until 2/15!


Lunar and Crystal Blessings,

Marissa Moondaughter

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Saturn Return: The Awakening

This is the 9th article in my newest series, Saturn Return. These posts are from amazing souls who have gone through theirs (or are still in their Saturn Return) and are sharing their stories to help us prepare and reflect on the powerful effects the planet Saturn has on our lives. What is your Saturn Return? This is the best explanation I have found.

KV from Aquarius Nation also made this amazing free episode about the Saturn Return on her Earth Walk Podcast. So so powerful!

So grab a cup of coffee or tea and stay awhile. Let your soul be immersed in these stories and be open to what you need to hear.


:: Sadie Rose ::

Before you read my story, I would like to thank Marissa for the opportunity to be a part of this series. What began as an assignment on Saturn return ended up being a therapeutic writing session on one of the most transformative years of my life. Until now, I hadn’t written about it, despite knowing I should. Oh, and like many women my age, my Saturn is in Libra. Here’s to balance and the brutal pursuit of personal justice:

At 29, I was years deep into a committed relationship with a man I loved dearly. That year, we decided to move out to the country together to fulfill our homesteading dreams and to begin living happily ever after. Right before the move (in the thick of winter), as we were gathering our resources to move, I was struck down by a powerful illness. As a strong and healthy individual, this was unusual. After 4 days of a high fever and shifting in and out of consciousness in my bed, my inner voice spoke up and told me to go get antibiotics because my body couldn’t do this on it’s own (the voice actually said, “you aren’t winning”). I remember clearly the fear that gripped me when I realized how sick I was and how high my fever had been running during those few days. 

To make a long story short, I took the antibiotics, and though the actual sickness went away, I had taken a serious hit. My body was weak and I felt cold all the time…so cold! I had never been so cold in my life. I could not get enough layers on my skin, and when I saw other people in minimal layers, I ached for them, worried that they would feel the deep chill that enveloped me. 

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With the help of pure magic (and my boyfriend), I managed to move out of my house and help my honey move out of his house. There was a lot of cleaning involved, and the process was physically and psychically taxing. Finally we arrived on the new place out on the land. I’ll feel better soon, I thought. Now I’m done moving. A few months later, spring began to peek her head through the clouds:

Okay, maybe now I’ll feel better, because it’s springtime. Everyone feels better in the springtime, right? 

Still, time moved forward and I felt mostly awful. I had no energy and was uninspired – my creative projects floundered. To compound matters, I was hard on myself, criticizing my fatigue and worrying endlessly that I was being a bad mother. I felt unable to connect with my friends, as the clouds that hung around me were fuzzy and hard to talk about. I blamed myself. I needed to snap out of it. And why was I so tired all the time? 

Finally summer arrived, big and hot. I was still struggling with energy and direction, and the bright sun and parched red hills made me feel overwhelmed, like I needed to breathe more. I craved rivers and wet moss. In June of that year, I was approaching my 30th birthday, and I dragged myself, against all exhausted odds, to the 30th birthday party of my best friend. She had rented a pool house for the weekend, and the house was teeming with babes in bikinis and platform shoes, beaded earrings and wide-brimmed hats. The drinks were plentiful and the food was fresh. (Yes, it was as good as it sounds).

That weekend, beneath the stars in Napa Valley, I had an experience that brought me back into my body. 

Yep. I didn't really know that I’d been out of my body, but something activated my spirit and it came rushing back into me, upward, as though I had buried it deep below me. It nearly moved me to tears. I remembered these things (that I had forgotten): I am bright; I am full of light; I have much to offer the world. And then I realized these things (that I had not wanted to notice): my spirit is unwell; I am not happy right now. 

And in that moment, my life changed. 

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I slept that night under the stars and returned home with a new agenda, new inspiration in my blood. Something was brewing deep in my belly, and when I got home, I took action. I vocalized the fact that I was depressed. This alone was tremendously scary. I was afraid of rejection and scorn, but of course I was met with compassion and support. My friends wrapped me in their wings, and I took myself to my Naturopath and told her my story. It turns out that my respiratory illness those 8 months before had triggered adrenal burnout and I had been suffering from the effects ever since. The adrenal fatigue, combined with other elements in my heart and spirit, had been wearing on me and I was exhausted and I was depressed. It was sad and it was scary. However, leaving my doctor’s office that afternoon, I felt elated. Someone could help me! She gave me medicine! She could treat my adrenals! This meant it wasn’t all up to me and I didn’t have to do it all on my own. 

I’ve called this piece “The Awakening.” I view that night under the stars as the moment of awakening, when the information was delivered to me and I remembered my spirit. This moment encouraged me to seek help and to find medicine for my physical body, and, as you might imagine, this was only half the battle. I knew now I would have to face the worst part of the work I needed to do: I needed to leave my relationship. Though I fought this for a long time, the truth sat deep inside of me and radiated a slow and steady light. I went through a period of total sadness and grief as I slowly, begrudgingly let go of my happily-ever-after dreams. I said goodbye to my visions of marriage, of forever, and I let go of my illusion of complete and total safety. I was being called back to my own path, the one I came here on and the one to which I needed to return, alone. 

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Of course, I am condensing this story immensely here. This whole chapter spanned the distance of about 14 months, and a lot of it was grueling, tear-filled, and terrifying. The man I loved was no longer part of my destiny, and it was a hard reality to swallow. We did the best we could. We worked really hard and we broke through a hundred walls; we were reborn over and over again and now I know exactly what it means when someone says “the only way out is through.”

In the end, I left my relationship, against all odds. I moved with my son to our own little cottage in the woods, surrounded by fruit trees (and, as fortune would have it, a few guardian angels). My road to recovery was not swift, but it was also not terribly slow. I treated my adrenals with diet, exercise, and botanical medicine. With time, they healed. I learned many lessons in listening to my intuition, being honest with myself, and in asking for help. I learned that friends will always be friends, but they will be superheroes when you humble yourself, let the tears come, and speak your truth and ask for assistance. 

I learned that I am very, very strong. 

I learned that The Awakening comes hand-in-hand with the darkness, the death. (It is truly darkest before the dawn).

 



It is my hope in telling this story that it will shed light for any or many of you going through a similar process of your own. May this story help you navigate your own Saturn return and give you faith that the breaking down of your familiar structures is only part of the path to your higher self and your true happiness. I wish you many blessings on your own transformation. I promise you will come out the other side, and you will love what you see. 

Sadie Rose is a writer, designer, stylist and vintage clothier. After graduating from the University of Oregon in 2004, she spent several years in Portland, Oregon, connecting with the creative heartbeat of her generation.

She now lives in Northern California where she works with a large network of other women to produce art and beauty through creative design and collaboration. Through her styling and consulting, Sadie Rose weaves the rich history and fine craftsmanship of vintage textiles into modern stories of femininity and fashion.

When she is not making things, designing things, styling things, or thinking about doing these things, she enjoys reading excellent novels, drinking tea, and sitting in the sun. Above all, her greatest pastime (and accomplishment) is watching her 9-year-old son reveal to her the great mysteries of the universe.

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Saturn Return: Finding my Purpose through Set Back & Shifts

This is the 8th article in my newest series, Saturn Return. These posts are from amazing souls who have gone through theirs (or are still in their Saturn Return) and are sharing their stories to help us prepare and reflect on the powerful effects the planet Saturn has on our lives. What is your Saturn Return? This is the best explanation I have found.

KV from Aquarius Nation also made this amazing free episode about the Saturn Return on her Earth Walk Podcast. So so powerful!

So grab a cup of coffee or tea and stay awhile. Let your soul be immersed in these stories and be open to what you need to hear.


:: Elle North::

I hadn't heard of the concept of Saturn Return until I was almost through with its process. Perhaps it would have helped me to put everything that happened during that time into perspective.  Perhaps it would have given me hope that all of the trials I experienced would ultimately usher me into adulthood and discovering my true purpose.  

In the moment, however, it's hard to tell someone experiencing a whirlwind of change and shifts that it will all work out for the best. 

My Saturn is in Libra.  The sign of relationships and balance.  For a bit more background, my sun is in Gemini and my moon is in Virgo. I'm the sort of person to have multiple interests developing at once.  I feel like I'm always evolving and picking up skills.  My Virgo moon makes me seem grounded and calm on the outside, but my Gemini sun means that sometimes, on the inside, I have a thousand thoughts and plans developing at once.  

Back to that Saturn in Libra.  All of that balance that Libra brings was totally thrown out the window during my return period, from December 2011 to September 2012 (and a little afterwards).

In retrospect, however, I see that a lot of spiritual growth was happening simultaneously alongside upheaval.

Sometimes things have to get crazy in order for you to find your soul's purpose.

During this time, I started to experience strange health symptoms.  I would have these crippling side pains that would leave me in bed for hours.  The pain was so intense once that it caused me to faint.  When I'd go to the doctor or emergency room, however, they found no cause for the pains.  I was also experiencing frequent migraines that would leave me in a haze for a two day periods.  I was never one to get headaches, so this was strange for me. Coincidence or not, once my Saturn return ended in September 2012, neither of these symptoms resurfaced.

Besides my health being out of balance, my financial situation was also unstable.  My husband and I were struggling to make ends meet.  We were on food stamps and kept the heat at 58 degrees or less through the winter in a very drafty old apartment in northern New England.  Shortly before my Saturn return began, my husband decided the best plan for our financial stability would be for him to go back to school full time for a new four year degree.  This meant that I was the sole income earner during the school year.  While I was working at a job that I loved, I was earning just barely enough to make ends meet for the two of us.  

This financial strain also put a strain on our relationship.  Not only was my husband occupied with crazy amounts of homework, he was also dealing with a wife going through her Saturn return.  During this time period I was pretty moody.  I was grumpy and constantly worried about my health problems.  It was all that I talked about.  I was struggling to stay positive but it was hard after all we had been through.  I'd say that I finally fully showed up as a partner for him the Spring after my Saturn Return, and our relationship became even stronger than ever.  Oh, and, my husband's sun sign is Libra...so I wonder if that had anything to do with all of this.

While my husband was busy with school, I was busy too.  The month my Saturn return began, I was offered a work-study exchange for a yoga teacher training.  I had earned my Reiki Level 1 in September of 2009, but in May and July of 2012 (towards the end of my Saturn Return) I studied Reiki Levels 2 and 3.  I became a certified Reiki teacher a couple of weeks after I became a certified yoga teacher.  That summer I amped up my meditation practice and it became an integral part of my daily routine.

Around this same time, I was offered a new job which would give me a much-needed pay increase.  

Things started moving forward full-force after that.  I deepened my knowledge of Tarot and crystals.  I saw my intuition develop in a phenomenal way.  Aspects of my career were slowly coming into place.

I am writing this exactly two years after my Saturn Return ended.  My career has developed in a magical way that lights me up and fuels my true purpose.  All of the learning that I did during my Saturn Return prompted me to begin Drawing Within (link?) this past year.  I am more financially stable and my husband is (finally!) in his last year of full time schooling.  I feel like Saturn return prompted me to figure out how to be comfortable with who I really was.  Once I found myself and nurtured myself, everything else seemed to fall into place.  In the falling apart came a building up.  There was a reason for it all.  It was just really hard to see clearly through the fog that Saturn cast over me at the time.  Now I feel awake and alive with purpose and love.  Now, I am stronger.

 I am an intuitive Reiki master who combines knowledge of Tarot and crystals to
create unique offerings for soul-seekers.

My work is to empower others to connect to their inner wisdom.  I believe in the
power of healing, energy, art, stones, and intuition.  An alchemist at heart, I thrive
in a space where things are sacred and full of ritual. I know transformation can
occur when we move the unconscious to the conscious; the inner world to the
outer world.

Let me be your guide you toward intuitive alignment & a deep sacred inner
connection.

Let's connect:  www.drawingwithin.com
Facebook:  www.facebook.com/drawingwithin
 

Reiki.   Art.   Meditation.   Intuitive Readings.  Crystals.  Tarot.   Ritual.


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