It has been a long time since I have checked in here and poured my heart out. I ebb and flow in this blog space of mine. I would love to flow more, but it is what it is.
My heart feels lighter because I finally finished the Self Study Program. Thank you for your feed back and support while I hunched long hours over the computer reformatting my work. I pushed myself creatively and I am so happy how everything turned out. You can sign up anytime, there are no deadlines or limits.
Anyway, I wanted to complete the ebooks before this coming weekend because I am starting a new path.
I am embarking on the path of yoga teacher training. it begins on Sunday and I am elated, excited, and nervous.
The thing is, I feel a strong disconnect with my body. I am not grounded very much, I forget to eat, and the older I get, I beat myself up more for not exercising and taking advantage of my youth and energy. So I beat myself up, pig out on junk food, and the cycle begins again.
I am breaking this cycle once and for all. I want to see my body as a temple and treat her with sacred love and respect.
My word of the year has been abundance, but for the past couple of months I have felt a shift. Abundance is in my life and I am grateful for that. But this shift is directing me to DEVOTION. Devotion to my body, my path, my community, my life.
I need to be the priestess of my body. Devoted to nourishing her and caring for her they way I have done so for others.
I have been drawing a card before I practice yoga to focus and meditate on. I have named it Tarot Yoga :) And the first time I did I drew the High Priestess, or Seeker.
This will not be easy for me. There is definite healing that must take place within my body. I must forgive myself. I must let go and surrender . I must show myself compassion and love.
But I know it is time. I am ready to show up for myself. I am supported and I am loved. And I grateful.
So here is to devotion. To completion and and new beginnings. It's time to shed my old skin and wrap myself in love.