Saturn Return: Finding my Purpose through Set Back & Shifts

This is the 8th article in my newest series, Saturn Return. These posts are from amazing souls who have gone through theirs (or are still in their Saturn Return) and are sharing their stories to help us prepare and reflect on the powerful effects the planet Saturn has on our lives. What is your Saturn Return? This is the best explanation I have found.

KV from Aquarius Nation also made this amazing free episode about the Saturn Return on her Earth Walk Podcast. So so powerful!

So grab a cup of coffee or tea and stay awhile. Let your soul be immersed in these stories and be open to what you need to hear.

:: Elle North::

I hadn't heard of the concept of Saturn Return until I was almost through with its process. Perhaps it would have helped me to put everything that happened during that time into perspective.  Perhaps it would have given me hope that all of the trials I experienced would ultimately usher me into adulthood and discovering my true purpose.  

In the moment, however, it's hard to tell someone experiencing a whirlwind of change and shifts that it will all work out for the best. 

My Saturn is in Libra.  The sign of relationships and balance.  For a bit more background, my sun is in Gemini and my moon is in Virgo. I'm the sort of person to have multiple interests developing at once.  I feel like I'm always evolving and picking up skills.  My Virgo moon makes me seem grounded and calm on the outside, but my Gemini sun means that sometimes, on the inside, I have a thousand thoughts and plans developing at once.  

Back to that Saturn in Libra.  All of that balance that Libra brings was totally thrown out the window during my return period, from December 2011 to September 2012 (and a little afterwards).

In retrospect, however, I see that a lot of spiritual growth was happening simultaneously alongside upheaval.

Sometimes things have to get crazy in order for you to find your soul's purpose.

During this time, I started to experience strange health symptoms.  I would have these crippling side pains that would leave me in bed for hours.  The pain was so intense once that it caused me to faint.  When I'd go to the doctor or emergency room, however, they found no cause for the pains.  I was also experiencing frequent migraines that would leave me in a haze for a two day periods.  I was never one to get headaches, so this was strange for me. Coincidence or not, once my Saturn return ended in September 2012, neither of these symptoms resurfaced.

Besides my health being out of balance, my financial situation was also unstable.  My husband and I were struggling to make ends meet.  We were on food stamps and kept the heat at 58 degrees or less through the winter in a very drafty old apartment in northern New England.  Shortly before my Saturn return began, my husband decided the best plan for our financial stability would be for him to go back to school full time for a new four year degree.  This meant that I was the sole income earner during the school year.  While I was working at a job that I loved, I was earning just barely enough to make ends meet for the two of us.  

This financial strain also put a strain on our relationship.  Not only was my husband occupied with crazy amounts of homework, he was also dealing with a wife going through her Saturn return.  During this time period I was pretty moody.  I was grumpy and constantly worried about my health problems.  It was all that I talked about.  I was struggling to stay positive but it was hard after all we had been through.  I'd say that I finally fully showed up as a partner for him the Spring after my Saturn Return, and our relationship became even stronger than ever.  Oh, and, my husband's sun sign is I wonder if that had anything to do with all of this.

While my husband was busy with school, I was busy too.  The month my Saturn return began, I was offered a work-study exchange for a yoga teacher training.  I had earned my Reiki Level 1 in September of 2009, but in May and July of 2012 (towards the end of my Saturn Return) I studied Reiki Levels 2 and 3.  I became a certified Reiki teacher a couple of weeks after I became a certified yoga teacher.  That summer I amped up my meditation practice and it became an integral part of my daily routine.

Around this same time, I was offered a new job which would give me a much-needed pay increase.  

Things started moving forward full-force after that.  I deepened my knowledge of Tarot and crystals.  I saw my intuition develop in a phenomenal way.  Aspects of my career were slowly coming into place.

I am writing this exactly two years after my Saturn Return ended.  My career has developed in a magical way that lights me up and fuels my true purpose.  All of the learning that I did during my Saturn Return prompted me to begin Drawing Within (link?) this past year.  I am more financially stable and my husband is (finally!) in his last year of full time schooling.  I feel like Saturn return prompted me to figure out how to be comfortable with who I really was.  Once I found myself and nurtured myself, everything else seemed to fall into place.  In the falling apart came a building up.  There was a reason for it all.  It was just really hard to see clearly through the fog that Saturn cast over me at the time.  Now I feel awake and alive with purpose and love.  Now, I am stronger.

 I am an intuitive Reiki master who combines knowledge of Tarot and crystals to
create unique offerings for soul-seekers.

My work is to empower others to connect to their inner wisdom.  I believe in the
power of healing, energy, art, stones, and intuition.  An alchemist at heart, I thrive
in a space where things are sacred and full of ritual. I know transformation can
occur when we move the unconscious to the conscious; the inner world to the
outer world.

Let me be your guide you toward intuitive alignment & a deep sacred inner

Let's connect:

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Saturn Blessings,

Marissa Moondaughter

moon my compass // intuition my voice // crystals my companions

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